i've been looking up a lot of congenital malformations recently
and other forensic stuff with lots of photos and detailed medical descriptions
i really don't know how doctors can seperate the fucked up stuff they're looking at from the analysis side of things
i came across the first one on a thread about intelligent design....hahahaha...i didn't read the thread but i'm sure there was some idiot trying to justify it..
i'm going to make some drawings based around them...but i'm not really sure where it's going to go
here's the first drawing
Arcadius Anceps(chorangiopagus parasiticus)

when i really think about it
i don't have that much going on in my life
it's not a bad thing for me
but sometimes i think that i'm getting older and don't really have a life
i don't have a career or a lot of friends
i spend all of my time either drawing or reading or on the internet
i never go out
and that's all i look forward too

does anybody else have a problem with confidence?
i'm always questioning the shit i do
when i'm in my house drawing everything is fine. i might have agrophobia
i like the art i'm making
but i can't get the other shit that comes with it out of my head
if i didn't have the internet i'd probably be much happier
just sitting around my house day and night
making drawings that i know nobody would see seems ideal
i get about 3 hours of drawing done a day sometimes 4
which is a lot more than i used to get done so i feel like i'm on a routine
it helps weed out the shit ideas because not everything has to be perfect
and i can throw a lot more away or use something from a shit drawing
i can never seem to get enough done though i have a ton of stuff due already and then i got asked to do some other things with similar due dates
the worst thing in my life right now is i don't have a system of remembering due dates or emails i need to respond to
there's a due date the 15th that i remembered about today and i'm sure there are some emails i've forgotten
i just bought a calender so hopefully that helps


